everyone always makes oral fixations so sexual. and honestly i usually dont care, but for whatever reason that bothers me. my oral fixation feels more like repetative comfort* sometimes its the chewing, like i so wish that it was socially acceptable to chew on gum all the time, sometimes i just rub my cheeks so i can feel the way my mouth moves on the inside like that. its hard because i hate spit that much. even my own, at least when its outside my mouth .

I guess repetative comfort is sort of like a sub type of stimming, its where i just do similar/the same action over and over for some reason. Like i have all sorts of music posters on my wall, theres even a noah khan one im yet to put up, so i just take down poster after poster, and its soothing to do that over and over, and i feel a lot better when i do. (i have since added it, plus others, i should add pictures at some time of my poster wall, i have a swans one i really like)

not much to add here, i hate spit. you could get down and take a shit right in front of me and i think id be more grossed out if you spat on the ground. im dead serious, if you spit in front of me i will go seventh cup wild even if im grossed out. i hate it that much, it awakens some pre-history moneky brain bullshit hard wired into my grey matter that makes me go 'gross, i need to kill that thing'